i.love.pink.donuts!

2009-02-24T21:42:00.003+08:00

on connectivity

somehow i feel, as we progress and become more technologically connected, we become less connected to others physically and emotionally.
how do you stay connected to someone?

if i "see" someone on facebook/friendster/msn/skype everyday, have the person's email and mobile number, am i counted connected to the person? are we "in contact"?
well, i know what the person is doing (facebook status! msn nicks!), where the person has been to recently and even years ago (facebook photos!), the crowd the person hangs out with, the common friends we have (facebook's 'people-you-might-know' function!), who the person got attached to ("xxx is no longer listed as 'single', he/she is listed as 'in a relationship' with XXX"), whether they are about to get married.
i probably know almost all about that fella! heck, i might even recognise the friend's friends' cos i've been looking at the friend's facebook photos so much!

but hey this is just like stalking them in broad daylight! or rather, they allow themselves to be stalked..

i thought staying in contact meant u had to, u know, at least have some verbal or face-to-face communication (yeah, we have to include online conversations too).

which is why i don't really like pple adding me on facebook or msn quite randomly, and NEVER approach me to talk to me. AND WHAT IS THE USE OF ADDING ME?! please dont tell me "just don't add them/approve the friend request la!". cos i have had weird situations where the person comes up to me and says "how come u never approve my FR or add me back on msn?" errrr right. so i hurried home and added the person. AND WE NEVER SPOKE A WORD SINCE. not even a "hello, how are u doing?"

tell me, what is the point, seriously?

2008-11-05T08:55:00.002+08:00

a short post

my friend once told me, "noelle, in life, don't ever settle for second best. keep searching till you find the best for yourself!" (she was talking about relationships and boyfriends)

when i think of what she says, i start to wonder...
there is NO BEST person. there is NO RIGHT person.
there is only THE PERSON YOU LOVE MOST.

am i right or not?
bahhh.

another day at work.

p.s: i super love petsociety on facebook! all of you friends who are on my facebook should join petsociety too!!!!

2008-06-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

random post no. 16

it's been quite some time since i wrote anything..
blame it on my need of sleep. blame it on my lack of time.
blame it on my PROCRASTINATION.
why am i such a procrastinator?!

anyway, since i kinda forgot how to write anything, i went reading my past entries.
it's amazing to be able to relate to what i wrote.
reading my entries bring me back to my life in e past.
i feel what i felt then. the pain, the joy, the worries..

i am somehow amazed at the way i write sometimes.
especially when i write about love.
it must have been really strong feelings i felt, to have made me write that way.

ok, just some random thoughts. enough, change topic.

i hate being myself.
i hate being just mediocre. just average. just being me.
it annoys me to the core!

since i was little, i never dared to try anything new bcos i was afraid to fail.
so i never danced, never sang, never picked up sports.
i never ventured out into the unknown, never took an untrodden path.
bcos i was afraid.

i love singing, but i'm just average at it.
i love writing, but i'm just normal at it.
i love dancing, but i'm just weird at it.
same goes for badminton, netball and everything else in life.

and so i've grown up.
graduated with an average degree, got a pathetic job and bleak future.
WTF is this?
i'm sure i wasn't born to be like that.
i yearn to be someone better, to be successful like my peers.

but why am i just me?
the average, pathetic, loser me.

oh please don't tell me things like "bcos you didn't try".
try i did.
i threw away all my fears and awkward feelings and tried my best in everything i could do to improve my life.
but i failed.
time and time again.

u know why? bcos i'm just noelle.
the loser me.
i feel inadequate when i'm with my peers. they wonder why i'm in my current job.
what can i say?
BCOS I CAN'T GET ANYONE TO EMPLOY ME.
:(

argh. i need to get out of this "average" rut.

enough ranting for today.
time for bed.

2008-05-09T09:00:00.001+08:00

FUCK THE SINGAPORE PUBLIC TRANSPORT SYSTEM

as per above title.
FUCK.

2008-04-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

fight, noelle, fight!

yeah i know my parents are not rich, and neither do they have enough savings for me to plan my future.
yeah i know i'm quite demanding over the location of a flat etc.
of course i know.

but it's my life.
and i won't allow my life to be manipulated by anyone else, especially by money.

when i can...
i will give him the best i can ever afford.
i will fight to fulfil our dreams.
i will live my life, the one i built myself.

i know i can succeed. i just need that chance.
i'm working hard, i'm finding my foothold.
so just watch, i'll fight till the end.
i'm not giving up till i can give him the best.

and don't....
don't suggest controlling my life anymore.
it hurts.

2008-04-06T23:01:00.002+08:00

well, hello

glad to see that my blog still has some random visitors once in a while..
erm hello one and all! (i think it's more of ONE.. heh.)
haven't had much time to blog.
hectic life i lead, you see...

everyday after work, i come home and sit in front of the tv.
i eat dinner, read newspapers, remove my makeup, all in front of the tv.
i sit through the 7pm, 8pm and my favourit-est 9pm show.
at 10pm, i switch off my tv and head to the shower.
after my shower, i start my daily facial regime (in hope of rescuing my dying complexion).
and to complete my eventful day, i flop onto my bed and dial my baby's (MUACKS*)number.
zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

how very hectic.
great.

whatever time i spend idling or stoning, i basically devote most of it to thinking of my career progession and prospects (or in this case, the LACK of my career progression and prospects).

sidetrack: my bf just came into my room and expressed amazement at my blogging. HAHA

i swear i haven't been writing enough. screwed up my english.
i was talking to leonard online the other day, and some sentence came out like that:
"so he's very CONSERVATION, while i'm more outgoing"
damn. i'm never gonna hear the end of this.

hmm i forgot what i wanted to blog about.
bad memory.
so let's end of this post with a forward looking note.
i hope i'll find some time soon to blog, and erm, have more interesting things to blog about.

byebye.

2008-01-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

and i appreciate.

have been thinking alot these few days.
think my brain is about to reformat soon.
my head is somehow always throbbing away and i feel dizzy quite a bit.

other than the job offers i have been so stressed about, i have been spending quite a fair bit of time at gleneagles.
my good friend's dad is critically ill in ICU and i wish to just spend some time with her.
seeing uncle tubed up in the ICU was painful.
even more so since i saw him 3months ago after his operation to remove the cancerous tumour in his liver, and he was optimistic about how everything would turn out.
an optimistic, semi-healthy person 3months ago, he is now on life support in ICU, fighting for his life.
i feel so.... empathetic, if that is the right word to use here. i feel so much for my friend and her family, but i can't put the feelings into words. i just don't know what to say. i hope she understands my feelings through my actions and hugs.

cancer is really a terrifying disease. it literally eats a person up.
life is really fragile..
just like vincent said, we gotta treat everyone like they'd be gone tomorrow.
so i have been working hard to meet my own expectations of my roles in life.
let everyone around me know how much they mean to me.

i guess after experiencing my grandma's sudden death, seeing jvs's dad's passing, and now my friend's dad situation, i appreciate my family more.

i love my daddy.
i've always been a daddy's girl. when i'm with daddy, i know i will be safe.
i know he will solve all my problems for me. although he pisses me off a lot, i do remember the things he has done for me.
when i was younger, i once developed a high fever in the middle of the night. my daddy carried me in his arms and ran to the 24hr medical centre near my place. i remember feeling terrible, yet once my dad carried me, i knew my illness would go away soon.
all throughout school life and even till now, daddy has been, and still is, my personal chauffeur. i am somehow always faced with situations when i can't get home myself. (last bus left already; no money to take cab; blistered foot/feet so i can't walk home; dizzy spells; caught in the drizzle/shower/thunderstorm; ~~too lazy to go home myself~~ very far from home etcetc). just a call from me, and daddy would ~~nag alot and~~ zoom by to drive me home. better than taxi companies' taxi booking service. personalised service you know? he knows where all my good friends stay, simply bcos he has been to all of their houses to pick me up. in fact, my daddy identifies my friends not by their names but by their address!
to me, my daddy is my hero, my playmate and my entertainer. although he can't help us in our studies cos he's pretty much uneducated, he contributed to me and meimei's lives by playing with us. he always bothered to entertain us by playing games with us, go swimming with us, teaching us how to ride bicycles etc. today, my daddy still entertains us by playing PS2 games with us (although he gets pretty blur about which player he is and keeps "game over-ing")
we get irritated at his attention seeking antics sometimes, but really he is quite funny and adorable.

i love my mummy.
she's my wonderwoman, my know-it-all, my guide book to life.
she always knows what's best for me. she's the one i turn to for advice and support.
and i know, eventually when i choose to walk my own path in life, she'll always be there to support me. mummy brought us up to be decisive, to be strong and to be cautious but bold when making decisions. i'd always thought i veered off these traits, and nic is the independent, strong and decisive one. but as i grow up and see more people around me, i realise i am really much better off than a lot of people in the "decisive, strong and bold" department. i appreciate my mummy's efforts for putting me in a top school and keeping me firmly grounded. i hate the elitist mentality, but being from one of the best schs in singapore create an exposure and experience like no other. and i am proud that i mix well with other people from other schools. although my mummy is a full-time working mother, she never compromises on the time she has for us. she still rushes home to cook a sumptuous dinner for the family, and does all the housework at home. i feel bad that i havent done well in my studies, not as well as she would have liked me to (mummy paid a lot trying to get me educated), but i hope i can make it up to her in other ways.

i could go on and on about my parents. but i'm being summoned for dinner.

being a parent is a tireless job. can't just quit being a parent when you get tired of looking after and being responsible of a child.
but still, i am looking forward to be a mother of the children of the man i love. :)

do you appreciate the people around you?
treasure them before it's too late.

2008-01-11T11:07:00.000+08:00

random post no.16

i think this is going to be the random-est post everrrr!

i am so in love with the F4 song 在这里等你.
it is so damn nice can! freaking addictive.
just like 仔仔's 我不是F4 and 棒棒堂's YES!.
i am so shamelessly teeny-boppy.
this is what unemployment does to you.
while the bf is ~~slacking~~ working very hard at work to feed me, i sit in front of the computer and drool over other guys.
just kidding, baby. my favourite pastime is looking at my hair and picking out the split ends. how boring.

christmas came and went.
and so did new year's day.
am i old or what?!
while more than half of Singapore's ~~crazy~~ population was out partying with the crowds, i was at home, sitting in front of the tv, feeling very satisfied with the program on TVBS-asia channel.
what happened to the i-wanna-party feelings?

no specific new year resolutions for this year.
resolutions somehow are not achieved.
HAHAHAHA
this year, i just wanna learn. to live, to love, to mature, to treasure.

2007 was quite a happening year.
fair share of happiness and unhappiness.

i completed gms's fish farms project and exam.

i graduated.

i lost love.

i found full-time employment.
i quit that job and became unemployed.

said goodbye to my darling grandma.

i struggled with job search and doubted my self-worth.
but he never allowed me to put myself down. thank u, my baby.

birthday surprises 07!
a present that came to me thru snail mail! i luff 9jm!

and something i'd always wanted. from my boy! muacks*

most importantly, in 2007, i found freedom.
after so many half-hearted attempts and declaration of "i have let go", i know i have finally put down the burden.
after tormenting myself for so long, i finally realised that i have stopped crying when i look at our pictures. i can put away his gifts to me without shedding a tear.
so this is what freedom feels like. :)

ok i am very hungry so i shall go eat lunch.
XD

2007-12-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

birthday 2007

it's 20 dec again.
it's been 22 yrs.

and this yr is extra special..
bcos my willy whale shares the bday with me!

baby i love u!
let's look forward to more birthdays together!
muackss!

2007-11-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

my little getaway

so i've returned from my very last minute trip to genting.
last week.
only got e photos yesterday though.
thanks yuehlin, for lending us your power-packed cam.

the trip was a treat from the darling.
all expenses paid by him. :)

we went to the casino...

ate yummy baskin robbins ice cream...

went on the ferris wheel!! *yay*
ferris wheel delight!

happyyy la.
thank u baby!

:) was a great trip!
(except for the journey back home. we were both suppressing the urge to puke.)

2007-11-24T15:28:00.000+08:00

money woes

i am so fucking sick of being broke!
i think the bf will be happy to get rid of me soon since i'm a liability to him.
'tis bad.

*wanders off in search of a job*

2007-11-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

i despise men like u.

to: the man who left his child and wife behind.

do you ever once look back, and feel sorry for what you have done?
do you ever regret leaving your wife and your then 3 year old son to fend for themselves?
do you ever reflect on your deeds, and realised it was wrong?

while you sit in your 3 storey terrace/semi-detached home, do you think about your ex-wife and your son who are suffering the loneliness in the 3 room flat (which you didn't help to buy anyway)?
while you enjoy the simple comforts of a home, do you think about your ex-wife and your son who scrimp and save on daily neccesities to get by?
while you turn on your air-con and go to bed on your luxurious waterbed at night, do you think about your ex-wife and son who has to shower in cold water everyday?

did you even think about how hard life would be for them when you left?
did you even think about the pain you inflicted on them?
did you even care?

to: the woman whom the man left his family for.

do you feel sorry for walking into and breaking up a family that could have been so blissfully happy?
do you feel embarassed when you go for family gatherings because you know you shouldn't be there?
if you don't.. you simply don't have a heart or a conscience.

to: the man's step daughter.

it is to you whom i feel most pity for.
because of something your mother did, you end up with a debt that you can NEVER EVER return.
a kindness you will never get to repay.
do you feel sorry for your step-brother (the son who was left to fend for himself)?
do you realise that everything you enjoy now is what he should be enjoying?
do you know that you experience family warmth that he never did?
and if you do feel sorry, how will you ever give him back what he has lost?
not a chance.

i hate men who walk out on their families.
I HATE THEM.
if you decide to marry someone, isn't she the person you swore to love, to cherish, to take care of for life?
and when you decide to leave, and have another family, you throw them behind, not giving a shit about whether they can cope with life.
your measly $900 ailmony payment a month, doesn't pay for much, so thank you and fuck you.

GRRRRRR. >_<

2007-11-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

a brand new start

yup, they're back!
with a brand new group member!

energy was in town over the weekend.
we busied ourselves with trying to be nice to each other, trying to fit into UM's crappy demands etc.

i guess this trip was crucial for them.
i hoped the best for them.
i guess we all hoped the best for this trip.
but we've grown up, moved on with other important things in life.
we have other priorities to look after.
we're no longer the carefree students we were when we started chasing them.
we tried to help whenever we could, and all of us deserve a big pat on the back.
love u girls larhs.

one autograph session and one hug-the-fans session.
what a crappy promotional schedule.
so much for UM's professionalism.

auto session...
i was pleasantly surprised by kunda, ahdi and xiaogang.
kunda and ahdi, for remembering me.
xiaogang, for remembering LRX cos we gave him a card.

hug-the-fans session...
i was very very very touched by kunda.
he made me feel very appreciated as a fan.
好像跟一個老朋友相聚。。
5 年了。。真的沒有白疼你們。
as i came down the stage, lots of memories flooded back, bringing tears to my eyes.
yes, i am proud to be an energy fan.

notice how shuwei was conveniently left out of my recaps?
cos i am still not impressed with his goldfish memory.
(he has NEVER managed to impress me.)
somehow SW has always been the skip-and-go member to me.
i would forget to shake his hands at handshake sessions, totally skip him at auto sessions etc.

speical thanks go out to the darling bf who was understanding throughout the trip.
despite not sharing my views on idolism, he was supportive.
thank you baby.
although there was some tension, i'm glad we ironed it out quickly.
*muacks*

p.s: i realised my post is very incoherent. gawd! what happened to my writing? must be the lack of sleep..

2007-10-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

demand and supply

bcos the darling bf has now become an econs teacher, i am reminded of various econs concepts i learnt in jc.
i learnt about demand and supply.
demand is defined (briefly) as the want and ability to purchase a good or service.
*note: AND

applying it to my context today...
noelle's demand does NOT equate to aggregate demand.
cos i simply don't have the ability to purchase the things i want!
SIGH.

i want this.

OR this.

and this.
*can't find a picture of the long cardigan i want from Mango or ZARA.*
SIGH.

and some decent looking black shorts.
SIGH.

and a decent face product for exfoliation.
SIGH.

and black stockings.
SIGH.

and a new bag.
SIGH.

and the list goes on.
can't even be bothered to search the exact thing i want, cos i know i can't afford it anyway.

why am i so poor?
BIG SIGH.

2007-10-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

阿嬤, 好想你

今晚特別黑﹐特別靜﹐特別寂寞。
真適合想念阿嬤。

如果那天早上﹐我們打電話給ahma﹐我們就會得知她病了。
如果我們知道她病了﹐我們就會送她去醫院做治療。。。
如果阿嬤住在我家﹐身體健康就不會越來越差。。
如果阿嬤不這麼固執﹐獨立。。
如果。。如果。。。

再多的‘如果’﹐再多的‘早知道’﹐也喚不回我親愛的阿嬤。
再多的難過與不捨得﹐也挽回不了我們的過去。

我家樓下的小公園翻新好了。。
好想牽著阿嬤的手﹐走著。。

好想帶阿嬤去看我做工的地方。。
我的第一分工作。。她一定會很開心。。

好想一直叫著“阿嬤﹗我來了﹗”﹐ 然後看著她開心的笑臉。

好想陪她做好多好多事情。。。

還沒來的及好好孝順她﹐她就這麼突然離我而去。
很不甘心。。
那些對不起我阿嬤的人﹐我永遠不會忘記。
若不是因為你們的自私﹐阿嬤就不會走。。

你們怎麼對阿嬤﹐自己最清楚。
人在做﹐天在看。
我們等著吧。。

2007-10-11T10:49:00.000+08:00

ARGH

someone stab me, quick.
i need to get rid of the throbbing pain in my heart.
：（

2007-10-07T00:23:00.000+08:00

a post to the dearie

In Love With You - Jacky Cheung & Regina

Just a gentle whisper
Tell me that you called
Even only in memories
Where did we go wrong
Couldn’t find the words then
So, let me say it now
I’m still in love with you

Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me
And I’ll be there
I’ll be there waiting

I would always love you
I would always stay true
There’s no one who loves you like I do
Come to me now
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad
I will stand true
I’m in love with you

Now were here together
Yesterday has past
Life is just beginning
Close to you at last
And I promise to you
I would always be there
I give my all to you

Living life without you
Is more than I can bear
Hold me close forever
(I’ll be there)
I’ll be there for you

I would always love you
I would always stay true
There’s no one who loves you like I do
This I promise
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad
I will stand true
Hold me closer

Our love is forever
Holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
Love has found
Love has found, our way
I’m in love (I’m so in love)
I’m in love (yes, I’m in love)
I’m so in love
With you

:) yups, you.
my silly whale. <3

2007-09-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

goodbye, grandma

i remember those days when i stayed over at your house.
i remember those days when we walked hand-in-hand to buy breakfast.

i remember those days when you were lively and healthy.. you would cook a fantastic spread of dishes for dinner.
i remember those days when you were so happy to see us enjoying your yummy fried chicken wings.

i remember those days when you brought me to wedding dinners and proudly announced to your friends that i was your eldest granddaughter.

i remember those days when i slept in the same room as you.

i remember the day i saw you in ICU after your heart bypass - you were in pain, tubed up.
i cried, but you told me you were alright.

i remember the days we spent together on holidays.
australia, china, m'sia, thailand, macau...
i hope you enjoyed the holidays with us.

i remember that i learnt how to sing hokkien songs for you.
i remember you beaming at me, when i sang them for you.

i remember that you were delighted when i gave you money from my first pay cheque!
i wish i could continue giving you a portion of my pay..

i remember all the visits to the doctor's.
you would complain about the long wait, and i would talk to you to distract you.

i remember i would call you at random, just to ask you if you had eaten your dinner.
in fact, i still remember your old house number - 2877552.

i remember you reaching out to hold my hands when i was a little girl..
and i remember giving you my hand for support as you aged.

i remember that you loved me.
i'll never forget that.
thank you for looking after me when i was a baby.
it has been hard on you.
you have toiled long enough..
rest well.

ahma, 請記得我﹐別把我忘了。。
因為我下輩子﹐還是想當你的孫女。
謝謝你給我這麼多美麗的回憶。
ahma﹐ 我愛你。

2007-09-29T10:56:00.000+08:00

i've got very cute friends.

never realised that my friends were such entertainers!
it was such a strange conversation with xy!
she must be too stressed out at work!

haa.
my les partner, jiayou ba!
i'm here for u! :)

2007-09-26T14:14:00.000+08:00

hahahaha

oops.
my les partner is jealous.
=X
xtine i love u too also laaa.
don't compare okie! =D

2007-09-25T12:36:00.001+08:00

teehee :)

oh yeah i am loved. <3
:)

2007-09-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

random post no.15

why is the weather so maddeningly hot?
RAHHHH.

oh man i dread going to work tomorrow.
pray i get a new job soon.

2007-09-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

random post no.14

我懷念的是。。。

我想念5個人的energy.
很想念﹐很想念。
翻出了他們的cd, 剪報﹐雜誌。。
想起我們一起擁有的回憶。

5人的energy, 用再多的錢/淚/汗﹐ 都喚不回來了。
5人的energy, 我不會忘記。
一輩子的回憶。。。

work's driving me mad.
not the workload, but the management.
i'm beginning to dislike/disrespect my manager.
and that makes everything difficult.
more about this another day.

for now, i leave everything behind and run away with the dearie at work.

thanks for letting me have my way all the time. HAHA
thanks for your care when we were away! :)

ARGHHHH i'm growing FAT! :(((
this is really bad.
noelle, STOP SNACKING!

2007-09-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

random post no.13

wow it's been a long time since i last blogged.
working life has started to take a toll on me.
every time i sit down in front of my com to blog, i feel nauseous.
can't stand having to face the computer for such long hours!

i'm missing my friends more than ever, but i just can't find the time to meet up with them. :(((

continuing from my last post..
yes, i did graduate from uni gracefully.
no screw ups, no tripping-over-own-feet etc.
and yes, i miss school so so much.

i found some time (FINALLY!!) to take my graduation photos with my 9jms!
thanks jms, for taking the time and effort to join me in photo-taking!
thanks for not running away even if it rained!
thanks ying and wenya for being my image consultants of the day!
thanks wenya, for being my shoelender of the day!
thanks joey, for providing the mini fan!
thanks peach, for providing powder spray!
9jms! i feel your love for meeee!

**extra credits go out to yuehlin, who was our photographer for the day!**

work hasn't been tough, but it hasn't been smooth-sailing either.
it seriously isn't the best job in the world, but i have great colleagues who make everything seem better.
presenting to you my bestest colleague in SE!

he is the one who bullies me, entertains me, annoys me, counsels me, encourages me..
he's the angel and devil wrapped into a single package.
but alas, he served his last day on tuesday.
goodbye willy, good luck!
as i said in my letter to you, THANK YOU!!
i will keep all your advice to me in mind..
remember what i said: "you deserve much better than this!"

moving on is so difficult..
are you the reason for me to move on?
can you be my reason to leave everything behind?
can i do it? is it possible?

SIGH.
"life is full of barriers" - willy.

2007-07-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

random post no.12

firstly,
happyBIRTHday YANZI!
:)

convocation ceremony tmr.
lots of mixed feelings.
i'm excited at the prospect of seeing everyone in school again!
i'm happy cos i'm finally graduating.
i'm sad cos it's the end of my school life.
i'm worried cos WHAT IF I FALL DOWN ON STAGE?!?!
i'm upset cos i didn't graduate with honours, and compared to my sis who was valedictorian of her batch, i'm pathetic.
i'm annoyed cos i don't like the school's system of collecting tickets and such.

ARGHHHHHHHH
will i be able to sleep well tonight?

a new phase of my life is beginning.
will you walk with me?

2007-07-22T21:59:00.000+08:00

MSN relations.

i just looked thru my msn list.
and i realised i don't talk to 75% of the pple on it.
e bulk of it comes clearly from the NTU group.
i have 49 people in that group, and i talk to 5 of them regularly, and 3 more of them occasionally.
i bet most of them don't remember who i am.
we worked briefly together on various projects in a particular sem, and msn happened to be the easiest way of communicating with each other.
but when the project ends, so does the communication.

i am, however, more upset and disappointed at how i handle my relationships with the other people in my other groups.

9jms don't contribute to my disappointment. they clear this easily, cos i do chat with them online regularly.

under the group that i labelled "Energy Fans", i keep constant contact with HL, Christine, Peirong and Loojean.
and i'm thankful to them for making the effort to work at our friendship.

"JC friends". i chat with 5 out of 17 regularly, 3 occasionally, and e rest, NOT AT ALL.
what am i doing?!
why are they even on my list?!

my "SC girls" failed terribly.
out of 9 girls, i chat with 3 of them very very VERY occasionally, and not with e rest of the 6 girls.
once again, why are they even on my list?!
and why am i on their list?!

and the group that upset me the most: "YZULTD"
yzultd gave me beautiful memories.
we forged friendships that managed to extend further than just our liking for yanzi.
or so it seemed.
i guess life is taking a toll on the friendship.
out of 14 people in the group (including wilson who is basically non-existent on my msn cos he probably blocked and deleted me, resulting in me NEVER seeing him online), i talk to a grand total of 1 person occasionally.
SIGH SIGH SIGH.
even as i fight hard to protect my memories of YZULTD, they are slowly but surely, fading away.
and i am feeling a strong need to build up more memories.
as much as i can, i stay away from places that i frequented with them, so as to not "taint" the memory i have of that place.
something must be done soon.
i need money. and den i can organise a chalet or something.

2007-07-22T17:27:00.000+08:00

feeling a tad blue.

why do i get sudden bouts of sadness?

*screams out loud to get rid of this feeling*

done with harry potter and the deathly hallows.
final book.
the end of the series.
no more eager anticipation for the next book to be published.
wells, guess we just gotta wait for the movies to come out next.

WHY AM I FEELING SO UPSET?!?!? arghhhhh!

crappy feelings that i can't put into words.
shall blog when i'm in a better mood.
RAHHHH.

convocation on tuesday.
i hope i don't step on my own pants/trip over my own feet/lose my balance in my heels and fall down on stage.
please at least let me have a nice, graceful "leaving school" memory.

2007-07-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

random post no.11

i haven't had a random post for a LOOOOOONG time.

i have just fallen in love with this!!!

how can anything be this cute?!?!?!
i saw it at toys-r-us @ vivo about 2 months ago, but i only got to see the demo at suntec last week.
i loved it!
it kinda makes me giggle uncontrollably!
good to get rid of my troubles once in a while.

but this happiness doesn't come cheap!
this elmo costs a freaking $99.90!!
what's wrong with the world?!
do parents really buy such expensive toys for their kids?
i mean, kids will probably be interested in it for like, 1 month? (or maybe even only 2 weeks, given the short lifespan of EVERYTHING now..)

anyways, HULLO MY CARROT FRIEND ALEX!!!
i guess you should buy me one to bring me laughter while you're away in sydney!
it can keep me sane on your behalf!

went to pay respects to ishi at the temple today.
his friends and his family were with him at the temple.
i hear it's been like that since he left.
he's really loved.
too bad everyone couldn't feel for him, couldn't relief him of his pain.
it was a pity he chose to end his life, since he had a bright future in front of him.
but i still don't think it's a "sin".

putting myself in his shoes...
if i'm in so much pain till i don't think life's worth living, why live on?
why force myself to put on a mask and live a life that i don't want to live?
i don't believe in living for others anymore.
no more. simply because, when i'm in pain, no one, absolutely no one feels what i feel.
so i live for myself.
to make myself happy.
so i pledge to spend all my salary (when i find a job) just to make myself happy. tickle-me-elmo, gucci bags, lots and lots of make up, here i come! (JUST KIDDING LA.)

OMG just heard shocking news.
gotta go.
bloody malaysian robbers.

2007-07-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

touched by an angel.

you know how we feel down and depressed until we meet our angel, who makes everything seem alright again?
xy was my angel yesterday.
yes xy! YOU! :)

you know how you think you are treasured by your friends, but you don't actually know bcos no one ever says anything?
do you know the feeling when someone tells you that you really matter to them?

girl, i was truly touched.
i held back my tears at Fish & Co, cos i didn't want us to look silly.
but when i got home and read your msg, my tears flowed.

thank you xinyan!
thank you for letting me know that i'll be missed if i leave.
thank you for overlooking my flaws, and being my bestie in uni!
thank you for watching over me always.
thank you for lending me a listening ear.
thank you for being there when i need advice and encouragement.. your words always make a lot of sense to me!
thank you for being my angel of the day... :)

2007-07-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

遺失的美好。。。

記得2年前的某一天﹐
我和xy聊起了這首歌。
“有的人說不清那裡好﹐但就是誰都替代不了。。”
真~的。

愛情真的很可怕。
它可以把你捧上天﹐也可以把你推下地獄。

我還能忍多久呢﹖
這2年多的折磨﹐到底幾時才結束﹖

愛你愛到失去你﹐
是我最大的失敗吧。
你的不聞不問﹐
我的痛徹心扉。

不知道自己在想什麼。。
也許到頭來﹐一切都只是我的痴心妄想。

2007-06-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

那個他。。。

離開了
就這麼消失了

快樂走遠了
幸福不見了
未來模糊了
心﹐鎖上了

等著他。。
他知道嗎﹖
他在乎嗎﹖

2007-06-20T22:48:00.001+08:00

it's gonna be tough.

but..
i've made up my mind.
things that have to be done, have to be done.

if you wanna make it easier for me, just be my friend.
just be here for me.
that's it.

i don't hope for any encouraging words since this matter has been around for so long.
i don't need your understanding.
bcos you're not me.
you don't know wat it feels like.
you're not the one who feels tormented.
i wish i didn't have to go through this.
but i think this is the best way out now.

if you wish to help, just be here to hold me when i fall to my knees.

i thank you in advance.

2007-06-19T03:05:00.000+08:00

a very old song..

<你還愛我嗎> - 蔡依林

夜里传来雨的声音
轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想起你
那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛
爱情需要一些呼吸
偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系
任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗
好久没有你的消息
心里还惦记着你

在这冷冷的夜里
感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音
感情的路总让人好无助
我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福

oh
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你
你还爱我吗

2007-06-19T02:55:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna become an old bitch

i'm feeling so ARGH-I-CAN'T-EXPLAIN.
very grumpy, grouchy, bitchy..
you get the idea right?

i drove home at 245am just to realise that there isn't a carpark lot for me to park my car in.
i searched the WHOLE CARPARK!
bloody hell.
what do you expect me to do with my car? bring it home with me?!
why would you issue more season parking tickets than carpark lots available?!
i parked the car along double yellow lines.
if i receive a fine tomorrow morning, i am so gonna fuck HDB or whoever upside down.

i feel upset when i see couples lovey-dovey.
i miss my lovey-dovey days too.
ah fuck all the lovey-dovey things in the world.
fuck all the happy people in the world.

and fuck you too.
bcos you made me this miserable.
i wish i could hate you.

<我恨我爱你> - 張惠妹

都怪我太不争气
我恨我爱你
oh~我爱你
只是因为你是你
oh~我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的…
.新恋情
没关系…
我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
我恨你最后那一句
我爱你

2007-06-18T19:24:00.000+08:00

should i fight? or should i give up?

there are some days when i just wanna give it all up.
to forget all the pain, sorrow, guilt and all the crap feelings that i'm not supposed to feel.
to give up all the happiness, bliss, joy and all the other feelings that i'm not supposed to enjoy.

if i choose to fight, who/wat am i fighting for?
this is all very confusing.

i am nothing but an empty shell.
i am nothing without you.

2007-06-17T22:38:00.000+08:00

the importance of your happiness..

please be happy.
be happier than before.
bcos i didn't leave you for you to be unhappier.

2007-06-17T10:41:00.001+08:00

my sunshades.

i've recently taken to wearing sunshades when i'm out.
sure, it invites stares and strange looks from people.
it makes gloomy days darker for me.
but it shields me from everything else.
it hides my tired eyes, my dark eye-rings, my pain and tears.

my eyes give me away.
someone once told me, "you can be smiling happily on the outside, but one look into your eyes and i know you're not happy inside."
i don't want to show others my unhappiness, my weakness and my vulnerability.

i love my shades.

2007-06-17T10:19:00.000+08:00

18th golden melody awards, taiwan.

it was enjoyable as a whole, except for the red carpet event.
the 2 hosts had no chemistry at all, and kept interrupting their interviewees.
very annoying to watch.

i loved the performances, especially the opening performance by Jolin.
although i was never a big fan of hers, i see her effort and her improvements throughout the years.
for that, i salute her.
RESPECT.
she won Best Female last night!
i can't deny that she's not the one with the best vocals, but for all the hard work she has put it, she really deserves the Best Female title.

Tegomasu was good!
i was impressed by them!
johnny's trained them well.. LOL
but they didn't electrify me.

the people who ELECTRIFIED me were.........

SUPER JUNIORRRRRR!!! <3<3

WATCH IT WATCH IT!
as xinyan says, "THEY DID SO WELL!!"
yes i agree.
being only a one-quarter (not even half leh.) hearted SUJU fan, i LOVED LOVED LOVED their performance!
HANKYUNGGGG!!! EETEUK!!!!
i was squealing and screaming NON-STOP when they appeared.
btw, my mum asked me a funny question..
"so many of them! how do they earn money?!"
cue laughter. (it's SM entertainment that earns MOST of the money. sniggers.)

ahh idol fever again!
timely arrival.
idols cheer me up.
yay.

2007-06-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

scribbles

thanks for the long distance call, alex!
it meant SO much to me.
my dear carrot friend.
HUG.

got a new set of drawers.
reorganising my room, reorganising my life.
getting used to singlehood again.

i must be brave and strong...
to seek my dreams and follow my heart.

2007-06-09T20:43:00.001+08:00

SOS

depressed.
please help me.......

2007-06-07T17:16:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry

i know you'll probably read this.

i'm sorry that i can't be the person i wanted to be.
i'm sorry that i let you down.

taking a hiatus from blogging.
need to reorganise my life a bit.

2007-06-05T13:26:00.000+08:00

back to sunny singapore!

i <3 singapore.

taipei was great.
enjoyed myself.
but i'm super tired.
maybe taking a flight at 7am is not such a good idea.

gonna catch some sleep now.
lotsa things to do.
unpack, tidy up the room, find a place for my new stuff...
FIND A JOB.

laters, peeps.
i miss ya all.
especially my 9jms.
muackies*

2007-05-29T01:40:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm...

does time pass faster when you're feeling happy or when you're feeling melancholy?
am i really happy?
are we really happy?
or are we lamenting on lost chances, loves forgone and our seemingly happier past?

although we say time stops when we're feeling down, i feel that time flies by.
2 years have flown by, just like that.
i almost forgot what it feels like to live.

2007-05-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

how apt.

张智成-很想你
你在哪里这些年来如意不如意
还快乐,还单纯,还美丽
时光如何对你

我在这里人海中的一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭
我很想你你知道吗
如果可以就让我再见你
美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那持离只毁了我一个而已

我很想你听见了吗? woo~
这是唯一我无解的困境
那些过去不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息
都不是你
我只想爱你

我在哪里你会不会偶尔好奇
有没有曾经怀疑
我說我會忘記只是種好意

2007-05-27T08:22:00.000+08:00

no booze for me

my alcohol tolerance is at an all-time low.
i suck at drinking.
let's see.. i drank less than one-third of my sex-on-the-beach cocktail, and no more than 5 mouthfuls of hoegarden.
and i threw it all up.
retching by the toilet bowl is NOT nice at all.

i should either:
1) stop drinking completely OR
2) drink more to build up my alcohol tolerance.

my choice for the time being would be 1.
although i really should learn to hold my liquor, alcohol makes me feel oh-so-bad.
everyone please stop me from drinking.

P.S: one good thing though, i finally managed a good 8 hours of sleep.

2007-05-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

just thinking aloud

do u love someone for who he/she is?
or is it just a love of convenience...
did the person just happen to be at the right place at the right time?
it's so easy to "fall in love" if the person is just there right?
but what if you realised you didn't actually love the person?
will you be cruel enough to end it?

what is the right choice to make?
it is often so easy to preach, but so difficult to put into practice.
how many of us can shun away from the love of convenience?
how many of us can be strong enough to stay true to the love we once shared with our special one?

i am but a girl.
i can try to be your superwoman..
but i am only a girl.
why weren't you there when i needed you most?
why did you let me go?
why did we end everything when we knew we still loved each other?

follow your heart, or you'll never be happy.
listen to your heart...

2007-05-16T09:07:00.000+08:00

i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored.

i decided to do a senseless quiz like huiling.
it's one of those pointless quizzes that don't take up too much brain power.
i havent done one since sec1.
i shall just do one for old times sake. (what am i talking about? i need sleep badly.)
hee.

1. Where is your cell phone?
:: on my computer table

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?
:: is in his exam hall.

3. Your hair?
:: untied. like siao chabor.

4. your mother?
:: at work lo.

5. Your father?
:: going to work soon. now watching "jiayou jin shun!"

6. Your favorite thing?
:: my security blanket. and the pillow jone gave me for my 18th b'day.

7. Your dream last night?
:: was complicated.

8. Your favorite drink?
:: i <3 ribena!

9. Your dream car?
:: wah. too many to name. a super zhng-ed EVO, Audi TT, Beetle.
but my ultimate DREAM car: Lamborghini Gallardo Spyder
(it can only be mine in my dreams.)

10. The room you're in?
:: computer room.

11. Your sisters?
:: nic is at work.

12. Your fear/s?
:: losing the person i love most.

13. What do you want to be in 10 years?
:: a wife, a mother and a marketing manager of some sorts.

14. Who did you hang out with last
night?
:: js and the prata men.

15. What you're not good at?
(grammar error!! i hate reading grammatically incorrect sentences!)
*what ARE YOU not good at?*
:: too many to name. i'm not a very useful person.

16. What/who do you hate?
:: him. the one who took away my everything.

17. One of your wish list items?
:: a job :)

19. The last thing you did?
:: drove nic to work and wasted my life away in a jam.

20. What are you wearing?
:: mickey mouse tee + fbt shorts.

21. what aren't you wearing?
:: *rolls eyes* wat a dumb question.

22. Your pet?
:: an imaginary furry cute dwarf bunny!

23. Your computer?
:: is my best friend while i bum around at home everyday.

24. Your life?
:: torn.

25. Your mood?
:: FOUL.

26. Missing?
:: him and them.

27. What are you thinking about right
now?
:: my lovely bed! it's calling my name!

28. Your work?
:: AM CURRENTLY JOBLESS. shitto.

29. Your summer?
:: my summer? what? errr. sun, sand and beach?

30. Your relationship status?
:: "in a relationship"

31. Your favorite?
:: favourite wat?!

32. When is the last time you laughed?
:: last night. when js said something silly.

33. Last time you cried hard?
:: last night.

ok done. i need to keep my bed company.
byebye.

2007-05-15T15:46:00.000+08:00

penny for my thoughts

i'll be there.
i may be late.
but i'll be there.
wait for me.
don't go away.

i promised.
i'll be there when you need me.
i'll join you in a jiffy.
just wait for me.
don't go away.

2007-05-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

a new skin!

i finally did something (relatively) constructive at home!
haa.
played around with the HTML codes.
hope the skin creator won't mind. eeps. XD

i love rainbows.
they represent love, hope and dreams to me.
i chose this skin bcos it's grey.
painting a rainbow in grey skies is tough, yeah?
i hope to paint a rainbow for everyone i love, especially during their darkest hours.

2007-05-15T09:23:00.000+08:00

agonised.

除了對不起﹐還是對不起。
想彌補﹐卻不知道怎麼彌補。

真的很痛苦。

2007-05-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

random post no.10

why is my blogger dashboard in chinese?

i am a bummer.
XD

郭品超=好人。
thanks to ginny and HL for sponsoring petrol.
thanks to loojean for sponsoring airport parking charges.
it was a good trip.
thanks girls!

i am getting excited about my TW trip.
worried as well.
counting down. 20days.

the bf's having his stats paper tmr.
all the best to him! <3 <3

vincent's having his mid-term exam tmr.
all the best to him too!

DBSK and SuJu fans, check this out.
if you wanna buy something or have any queries, email Cherry at cherryade.love@gmail.com

2007-04-28T10:40:00.000+08:00

random post no.9

congrats nic!
yay! we got another driver among us!
next one on the list - LOOJEAN!
(but all our drivers and cars are based in the east! pr still got no one to send her home!)

9jms need another driver and another car!
9pple squeezing into one car is no fun at all!
we tried squeezing 7 of us into e car during e chalet...
and e outcome was....

peach was represented by her VonDutch cap. can't see her.
9jms are such cam whores - we can take photos in very adverse conditions!

talking about cars, i wish i could afford to buy a car.
something budget like toyota yaris, nissan march, mazda2..
or something bigger. RAV4, Rush.
where would e money come from?
i guess i'll make do with my nissan sunny.
shall earn some money to change the windows.
too much UV-rays are bad for the skin.

ahh i mentioned 9jm chalet.
was supposed to blog about this but i didn't have the photos then..

nic and ginny conducting a post mortem on a piece of agar agar.

i think we're very smart to think of this way to stand our mosquito coil!
each mosquito coil pack only has ONE stand. stupid ehh?
it allows you to burn one coil at a time. -__-

we went to escape theme park!
they went on the pepsi revolution...

here we go...

oops. HAHAHAHA.

poor cap. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 9jms laugh like mad.

my jms are so cute. :)
muack muacks*

2007-04-26T11:11:00.000+08:00

post-drama thoughts.

看了《惡魔在身邊》﹐有些感觸。

偶像劇裡的愛情﹐怎麼可以這麼完美﹖
現實中﹐愛情根本就有很多缺陷﹐不是嗎﹖
人們的愛情總是揹負著家人﹐朋友﹐社會的期待。

《惡魔》表達的是:喜歡一個人﹐就得堅持到底。
只要堅持﹐就會得到幸福。

我曾經因為懦弱而放棄一段戀愛。
當時我不夠勇敢﹐不敢背對家人﹐朋友的期待。
最後﹐我失去他了。

很可笑。。
沒有堅持而放棄的感情﹐失去後才後悔。
大家都說﹕“既然放棄了﹐那就算了吧。”
但他們不會知道﹐我對自己的責備是我永遠的包袱。

2007-04-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

bidding farewell to my student life.

my.exams.are.over.
am i supposed to be happy or sad?
i felt an overwhelming sense of i-dunno-what as i said goodbye to my friends.
friends i've made over the past 3 years.
we may not have been close friends, we said our hi-s and byes.
but at least i know, i was a friend to them.

had a mini farewell lunch for doris.
meiyan ling celeste marisa josiah alvin furqan ling cheryl.
and we ended the day with a movie session.
disney's new picture - meet the robinsons!
i liked the futuristic parts, where disney gave us lots of space for imagination.
every cartoon has to have a theme/morale of the story right?
meet the robinsons's was: "keep moving forward".
i guess it pretty much coincides with our life now.

is this the end?
or is it just the beginning?

2007-04-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

literature - the new composition

icy cold nights.
i fear.
i worry.
i weep.
i freeze.
i miss the warmth of the night of fire.

2007-04-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

literature

vincent showed this poem to me.

read it.
it's nice.
thought provoking.

2007-04-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

my latest obsessions

mike he. 賀軍翔。
drool.
i'm watching a 2004 idol drama (yes i know i'm a freaking laggard.)
devil beside you. 惡魔在身邊。
super sweet. :)
i like bad boys.

a gift from the bf.
something i wanted from a long time ago!
quite an addictive game.

these two things keep my sanity intact as i continue to fret over the gms exam.

2007-04-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

something from the past..

i found this paragraph on a piece of rough paper clipped between my notes.
i must have written it last sem when i was bored of studying for strategic management.

he never left. he never left.
he reminds me when i forget.
he follows me everywhere i go.
he haunts me when i sleep.
he punishes me for what i did wrong.
he never left...

2007-04-18T10:27:00.000+08:00

random post no.8

here to blog cos i'm bored of studying.
gms is such a strange module..
despite having gone through 1wk of studying it(or figuring out how to study), i'm still at a loss.
wat prof ian wants to test is our thinking skills.
so how do i study for a thinking paper?

my mum has really strange mood fluctuations.
i bet i inherited my mood swings from her.
haa.

lately i've been dreaming lots of weird dreams.
dreams make me tired.
i don't like to dream.

1 more wk before i really finish school.
oh no.

2007-04-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

see seeee!

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

2007-04-11T11:10:00.000+08:00

ginny says...

i must study hard!
yup i want to!
but the question now is...
HOW?

gms is some crazy shit.
nalanda?!?!?!
have u ever heard of nalanda?!

ok enough nonsense.
back to searching for nalanda before i lunch with gin and hl.

2007-04-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

my current fave

a present from the bf.
my forever angry cutie.
alex says it's darkly cute.
i dunno.
i just think it's uber cute.
love it to bits. :)

alex wants to be my forever angry cutie.
he says it beats his current nickname CARROT.
teehee.
CARROT. *sniggers*

2007-04-09T15:20:00.000+08:00

lunch with hl and ginny

i did a 'stunt' today.
under safe circumstances though..
but still, my parents better not know about this.
wahaha~

i went to ubi for lunch with gin and hl just now.
hl was afraid that i didn't know how to get there despite her instructions.
so she decided to stand by the road to gesture to me where to turn right, before she crossed the road to meet me.
but i decided to pick her up first before turning right......
here's the graphical representation.
the pink box is my car!
purple arrow shows the first movement i made after picking hl.
blue arrow shows the second.
(i know it's a lousy drawing la. i can't draw!)

see HL standing by the road, telling me to turn right.
decide to pick her up.
realised that i've already gone past the right turn.
hl gives me 2 options: U-turn ahead, or reverse the car to reach the right turn.
she eliminates option 1 by herself.
tells me to reverse the car.....

i reversed the car.
yes i did remember to check to see if there were cars.

made a failed attempt to move from the left lane to the turning lane.
reason: the 2 bright pink spots are motorcycles.
they were blocking my way la.
happily, my car was blocking both lanes. (my drawing not very accurate la!)
i muttered a silent prayer hoping that there'd be no traffic till i got my butt out of the way.

heng ah. no traffic.
proceed as per normal.

2007-04-09T14:49:00.000+08:00

回到過去2

went for yanzi's autograph session yesterday.
just 5 of us from the pioneer batch of yzultd was there.
me, nich, ccc, doug and craz.
what happened to the days when i went with a whole gang of them?
what happened to the days when we were still committee members, fussing over admin matters but having fun in the process?
those days seem distant. but i remember them so so clearly.

i remember the first time i met them all. at yanzi's concert.
i remember us meeting every single day during the sch holidays.
i remember us wanting to go out together although we didn't have a single cent on us.
i remember us teasing daniel about having to poop after every meal.
i remember us walking about aimlessly from bugis to suntec to marina square to esplanade.
i remember us singing yanzi's songs from TM to ferli's hse.
i remember us crying at j8 after we decided to step down as committee.
i remember us ton-ing at sun plaza for her autograph session.
i remember our committee meetings which were quite pointless since we ended up talking nonsense.
i remember all the birthday celebrations. (1st one we celebrated was nich's)
i remember ws's jokes about his too-quiet-neighbourhood.
i remember p4 laughing at ws for eating so slowly.
i remember p4's "燕姿﹐唱回到過去﹗"
i remember js's "燕姿﹐我愛你﹗"
i remember js having to chiong thru the mrt faregates bcos he had no money to take the train.
i remember falling in love for the 1st time in my life, with ws.
我記得。我都記得。
as hard as i tried to hold on to all of these, it became clear that i was losing them.
it all started falling apart.

and all i have now are memories.
memories that i replay over and over again, in the hope that i never forget them.

想回到過去﹐試著讓故事繼續。。。

2007-04-09T11:43:00.000+08:00

回到過去1

everything is passing by so quickly.
it's scary.
想回到過去。

finished my fish farms project on thurs. (haven't blogged after the project cos i wanted a break from the computer. rahh.)

we were fish farmers!

i'm glad it's over, yet i wish it wasn't over.
that marked the end of my university life in projects.
no more. :(
looking back on my uni life, i realised..
i haven't been the most hardworking student.
i haven't been the most enthusiastic student.
i haven't been making full use of the sch's facilities (c'mon, i only got to know last week that my sch's email inbox can be split into subcategories!)

but i have..
become more confident.
become better at presentations.
learnt a lot from the brillant people (eg. ahben, regina, jason, janet..)
seen many strange people. (best eg, angus. ask me about him if you wanna know!)
made good friends.
become a marketer.

my student life is coming to an end.
will i miss school? you bet i will.

when i take the mrt in the afternoons, i look around and tell myself, "i won't get to see these empty mrt carriages soon.. i'm gonna be packed like sardine in the mrt everyday during the rush hours. sigh."
and i close my eyes and take in the sounds around.
just to enjoy the moment.

when i go shopping in the afternoon, i look at everything appreciating-ly.
i won't get the chance to wander around aimlessly after i start work.
and i close my eyes and remember.
just to enjoy the moment.

i will miss school.
i will miss the plain simplicity of just hanging around with friends in school.
i will miss the privilege of time that students have.
i shall reflect upon my student life in another entry soon. (i hope i don't procrastinate too much.)

2007-04-03T00:05:00.000+08:00

i try to be useful...

but it seems like i'm not.

no matter how hard i try,
i don't seem to add value to my project.
it's like they don't need me at all.

i just need a good cry.
why is it so hard to work with them?
:(

2007-03-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

random post no.7

finally got the chance to catch music and lyrics.
hugh grant still looks so yummylicious!
will the bf grow old and still look good like him?
i liked the show. i mean, i LOVED the show.
i LOVED the songs!:)

when will i be free to watch mr bean? :(

ME AND XY TOOK A GOODIE BAG FROM SCHOOL TODAY!
this is a cause for celebration!
our first goodie bag from NTU!
considering how many times goodie bags are given out in NTU in a yr, we are laggards.
i mean, we're final yr students in our final semester, and we take our very first goodie bag?
grrreat!

time is passing wayyyyyyy too fast.
TOO FAST.
i just got reminded that we have 2.5more weeks in school.
gawd i'm getting depressed just thinking about graduation.

gms presentation - countdown mode.
very freaky.
someone help us please.
i am terrified of gms.
i refused to let the bf go home just now bcos i just wanted him to be around me.
he asked wat's wrong, but i couldn't give him an answer.
i was just... scared.
sigh so silly.

i think my brain has reached a point of saturation for today.
it cant process anymore information thrown at me.
hence, i shall sleep early.
i will sleep before 1030pm tonight.

p.s: oh did i mention that i love my phone now?
it has such cutesy, pinky accessories that serve no purpose but to increase the weight of my phone.
but i love it anyhow! wheee!

2007-03-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

random post no.6

TW trip is confirmed.
i'll be leaving for TW with the bf after his exams.
feeling quite excited although it is a long long time away.

i wish i had $2000 extra cash.
i really so super wanna go on a korea tour with xy and mj.
i know i'll enjoy myself a lot.
but.. i don't have $2000 extra cash.
so "POP!" there goes the bubble of thought.
maybe IF i win 4D/TOTO/Big Sweep.
IF i was bill gates.

i <3 TMNT!
i <3 movie dates with 9jm!
ying's colleague said that we are "HIP".
*scratch head*
i've never seen us as a group of "HIP" people.
the word should have been "NOISY".

i like big dinner gatherings with my friends!
i like them even more because the bf gets along well with my good friends!
:)

i want to lose weight!

looking at my HP makes me a very happy girl now.
nice wallpaper and cute accessories.
yay. :))

what a pointless post.
i shall sleep.

2007-03-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

the final weeks of school.

i've been busy balancing school work and work..
and i'm stressed out because i can't do either well.
projects never seem to end, and everything seems to get from bad to worse.

gms is terrible.
it's tough enough having to be the last presenting group.
it doesn't help that the topic we got is so difficult.
and worst of all, i feel that i can't work well with my group mates.
i struggle to keep afloat during discussions and i just can't understand what the group is trying to arrive at.
i don't see the end. not at all.
*i miss my fyp days*

the poor person that bears the brunt, is... the bf.
i realised i've been selfish. i almost forget that he is as tired as i am.
the bf has been incredibly patient with me. (seriously i don't know how he does it.)
and he has been my pillar of support!
thank u baby.

not forgetting the NTU bestie, xy, who has to listen to my grouses.
and be by my side when i throw my thursday tantrums..
school without her would be unbearable! *LES mode*

the final weeks of school.
i want to enjoy them.
i must must must work something out soon.
ganbatte ne, noeru chan!
ganbatte!

2007-03-22T21:41:00.000+08:00

joke of the day/week/month/year

student:to maximise profits, farmers plant cash crops on empty spaces in their fields. cash crops like........ KAMPONG CHICKEN.

prof: *bewildered* kampong chicken is a cash crop?

student: yes.

@_@
tell me that did not come from a final year university student.

2007-03-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

i am who i am.

being dependent doesn't equate to one being childish, right?
or at least that's what i feel.

i don't understand what you want from me.
why do you always seem unhappy with me?

p.s: fark msn seriously.

p.p.s: i hate feeling pms-ey. damn.

2007-03-17T08:44:00.000+08:00

流汗的感覺 - 真爽。

五月天的音樂 - 贊。

看五月天演唱會 - HIGH。

2007-03-16T08:04:00.000+08:00

to grow into love, or to fall into love

i read raine's blog and saw this..

"growing in love requires you to continuously find that something in that person to keep it going. whereas… when you fall in love, you just… fall. and you can’t un-fall, even though you wish you could."

how true.
after experiencing falling in love and trying to grow into love,
i'd say that falling in love is much easier (if you meet the right person).

my 1st relationship was a definite "fall in love" situation.
nothing else but him mattered at all.
i couldn't help it, i just kept falling deeper and deeper.
and as much as i'd have liked it, i couldn't un-fall.

the 2nd relationship was more of a "grow into love".
i guess it was the same for him, i don't know.
but we somehow lost track of each other along the way.
maybe it's because we no longer saw that SOMETHING we needed to continuously find in each person.

i would think that my current relationship is a fusion of both.
fell in love with each other, and we're still growing more into love.
i guess it's a good balance.
because we love each other, we don't exactly have to find that special something.
and yet, we continously discover new things about each other to love.
L.O.V.E.

2007-03-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

戀愛-ing

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
*muacks*

2007-03-09T18:56:00.000+08:00

random post no.5

i want to blog..
but suddenly, i'm at a loss for words.
i'm annoyed, irritated, confused and i feel like crap.
maybe i'm just pms-ing again. damn it.
i think i really need to start taking primrose oil pills.
gross.

i hate to feel that everything is starting to get out of control.
i hate being so busy and not being able to manage my own time.
i hate to be broke when there's so many nice things i wanna buy.
arghhhh.

my car stalled on me just now.
maybe that's why i'm feeling annoyed.
i hate it when things don't work e way they should.
TSK.
tell me why, tell me why, tell me why should an auto car stall when i'm reversing into a carpark lot?!
rahhhhh.

fyp's ending soon.
i'll miss e days when me, ling and janice work through e day to crap some nonsense out to hand in to our professor.
fyp meetings this week have been fun.
snacking, crapping, bitching, a whole lot of nonsense.
i like my fyp groupmates! :)

i am supposed to blog abt my birthday.
got lots of lovely picts and i kinda know wat i would write.
but i just can't get down to doing it.
why am i such a procrastinator?

wat is love about?
is it supposed to be transient?

stupid weather so hot.
bahhhh.

i felt e tremors on tuesday in office when e earthquake hit sumatra.
i thought i was just feeling giddy cos i was super sleepy.
it didn't occur to me that we probably had to run for our lifes.
i didn't realise e severity of the situation until i went down for lunch.
many people had already gathered outside the office building.
i'm taking safety for granted.
Singapore's so efficient right?
Our buildings can surely withstand e tremors right?
what if they didn't?
i bet i'd be one of e first pple dead if anything happened.
tsktsk.

i'm feeling frustrated.
but i love my boy!

and i love my jms!
they make my boring, mundane, brainless office work so much more bearable!
i love gmail! gmail spam! *yay*

2007-03-03T16:32:00.001+08:00

3yrs and counting...

yeps. 9jm is 3yrs old.
and we're still going strong.
it hasn't been easy, we've come a long way.

from students, to slackers, to working adults.
we've seen each other throughout these few phases of our life.

i thank god for this lovely bunch of girls, who are my guardian angels.

9jm, ganbatte ne! :)

2007-03-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

sun.yan.zi :)

she's back.
i love 逆光.

when i listen to yanzi sing, i feel lots of emotions.
i feel happy. i feel sad. i feel proud.
i feel a sense of warmth. can't explain why.
i feel kinda lost - i miss my past. i miss my yzultd. i miss those days.
感觸好多~ arghhh.

but listening to her songs give me strength, somehow.

她﹐就是這麼特別。

她﹐就是孫燕姿。

2007-02-28T20:54:00.001+08:00

awwwwww..

my boy is so sweet.
:)

2007-02-21T18:55:00.000+08:00

simplicity at its best.

went over to Hatyai over the CNY hols.
for e uninitiated, Hatyai is a little city (or should i say town) in Southern Thailand.
e oh-so-familiar "life is simple" feeling came flooding back.

it's so easy to make comparisons, to whine about what others have and we don't.
it's always so easy to feel dissatisfied with life, isn't it?
there are many reasons for us to feel happy with life.
we just don't look that way for answers.

although i am not born into a rich family, i am lucky enough to be born in singapore!
life would be so hard if i was born in hatyai.
undeveloped city streets, dilapidated housing.. harsh living conditions that i don't think i could endure.

instead of envying how rich the singapore rich are, i thank my lucky stars that i don't fall below e poverty line.
instead of getting green eyed over others' pretty clothes and their ability to spend money without batting an eyelid, i thank my lucky stars that i have some decent clothes to put on.

instead of concentrating of wat i don't have, i turn to look at how much i have.
and i have so much.

i have a close-knitted family and extended sim family.
i have a loving bf that any girl would die to have, who loves me so unconditionally.
i have a bunch of crazy girlfriends who love me. 9jms i love u!
i have yet another bunch of crazy gfs who share e same passion of star ogling as me.
i have a handful of friends who walked me through e toughest times of my life.
i have so many pple who love me!

look for happiness in e simplest things...
其實快樂可以很簡單。
:)

2007-02-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

me and my fren.

who just got attached.
(dis is a late post la. procrastination at work again.)
congrats phang! :)

2007-01-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

i'm tired.

i've been trying to be...

a good girlfriend
a good student
a good friend
a good worker
a good daughter
a good project mate
a good fan

looks like e juggling of these different roles has taken a toll on me.
i am frustrated at myself, for not being able to remember little things.
i am angry at myself, for not being able to be observant enough.
i am annoyed at myself, for feeling lethargic all e time.

i am just too tired.
why do i have so many things to do, yet so little time?
arghh.

i wanna revert back to my normal student life.
i wanna pamper myself with a whole day's sleep.
i wanna spend a whole day alone with him.
i wanna run around in e sun.
i wanna play beach volleyball.
i wanna be young again. i want my energetic self back again.

but somehow, i just can't.
bahhh.

gotta apologise to my baby, for e lack of attention i've been giving him.
he's been taking it in his stride, though.
thank God i have such an understanding bf.

2007-01-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

she's gone.

it came as a shock.
i took it for granted that she'd pull through.
then came e bad news on sunday.
it's such a pity.
she will be greatly missed.

i teared when i saw e footage on enews.
she's too young, too lively, too full of energy to leave this world.

life's just so fragile.
never take anyone for granted.
cherish your loved ones.

2007-01-22T18:58:00.000+08:00

my bestest friend.

me: *sighs* meimei...

nic: wat?

me: *makes random whiny, squirmy, gurgling noises dat is basically quite incomprehensible to anyone*

nic: ya okok. i know la..

me: WAT? u understood wat i was saying?

nic: YA. u miss him right?

me: *grins*

there.
told ya.
nic's my bestest friend.
hehehe.

2007-01-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

random post no.4

i am finally online again.
i've been feeling so out of touch from EVERYTHING in e world.
just bcos my computer hates me.
it just refuses to cooperate with me. :(

love is such a strange thing!
it makes me kinda silly. :)

i realised i'm worrying a lot these days.
i must say, it's not e best feeling in e world.
i worry abt money - am i going to have enough money for my tokyo trip with him?
i worry abt my studies - am i going to be able to cope with work and school?
i worry abt my future - my honours... sigh. am i going to be able to find an enjoyable job that can support me?
i worry abt my relationship - will this last? or will love fall apart as quickly as it came?
i worry abt my friendships - it seems everyone is too busy to keep in touch. will our friendships last?

FLH is coming!
am i ready? oh yeah, i am.
just that my bank account is not ready at all.
but i wanna have fun again!

my phonebill is coming.
omg. i.so.do.not.want.to.see.it.

i'm in desperate need of money.
i hope some money falls from e sky soon.
meanwhile, anyone with lobangs for weekend jobs, pls contact me.
thanks. love ya guys.

shall go sleep.
blog more soon.

2007-01-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

this post is freaking 2 wks late!

erm.. i just remembered i was supposed to come up with some new year resolutions.
2 wks late, but... better late than never right?
heh.

resolution 1) for obvious reasons, my most impt resolution is to stop procrastinating.
my procrastination nature often creates unnecessary stress for myself.
i would like rid of this source of stress in 2007.
after all, life's stressful enough, isn't it?

e rest of e resolutions are in not particular order of imptance.

resolution 2) shed some kilos.
hmm. i think this was one of my new yr resolutions for last yr.
but i think i didn't exactly achieve this, so here it is, on this yr's list again.

resolution 3) do something useful for once.
for example, get a job. wahaha. and this brings us to...

resolution 4) love my job.
freaking scary. i'm scheduled to join e workforce in aug 2007.
this is baddddd.
i'm gonna be part of e glum faces u see every morning in the MRT and buses.
yikes.

resolution 5) stay true to myself.
i don't know how joining e workforce will change my life and values,
but i hope to stay true to myself, to wat i believe in, and wat i stand for.

resolution 6) keep in contact with pple who matter to me.
very often, as we get busy, we forget e pple around us, focusing only on pressing issues currently on hand.
i don't want to lose someone to time.
i will make an effort to keep my friendships intact.
i love u friends!

resolution 7) learn to love him in e best way possible.

resolution 8) learn to cook!
ehh don't laugh leh.. i'm sure i inherited some "good cook" genes from my mum.
u laugh.
i shan't let u try my food after i become a world class chef.
haa.

resolution 9) achieve my resolutions for 2007.

looking at my list, i feel like bursting out in laughter.
ah wells, maybe this yr my resolutions will come true.
MAYBE.

2007-01-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

loves me?
loves me not?
loves me?
loves me not?

hee.
he loves me.
and i'm living a life of bliss.

愛情來得不易。
這次我會小心翼翼的保護我們的愛情。

2007-01-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

i hate incompetent pple.

i am freaking upset with my fyp tutor.
she is of completely NO help to us at all!

when we're directionless, and ask for opinions..
we do not need someone to tell us: "oh! A is good bcos..." and "but! B is good bcos.."
ya we can evaluate such things ourselves.
in fact, she seems to be always repeating to us wat we told her!

when we're working based on someone's instructions..
we do not need someone who keeps changing her mind!
she just CANNOT MAKE UP HER MIND! rahh!

she started off agreeing with us that SPSS (some nonsensical statistical program)is not needed for our project..
den she changed her mind, insisting on us using SPSS to analyse our results.
she kept saying that everyone uses SPSS for fyp.
says who?!
after much arguing, she now agrees dat we leave SPSS out.
i wonder how long will it take her to change her mind AGAIN!

and after all e "help" we got from her,
she tells us: "i am very dissatisfied with your performance..."
!)($*(*#&@&@^#$*!%!!!! (i need to scold some vulgarities here.)

i am freaking pissed. and so is janice.
so prof is dissatisfied with us~
can we tell her that we're super dissatisifed with her?!

incompetent person.
talk to my hand please.
bahhhh!

2007-01-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

counting down!

by tmr night, ginny would have returned home from TW!
which means, 9jms 全員到齊~ everyone's back in Singapore!
gin back from TW, joey back from US, nic back from Shanghai, ying back from HK.
swee la!
i love 9jm! <33

e xtine, hl, pr and lj gang will also be back tmr!
which means i'll get to hear lots of stories (hopefully abt my dong baby)!
girls, we need to meet up soon!
i got presents for u!

i am super looking forward to thursday!
my angel!
he'll be back on thursday!
yay!

p.s: i got my bday photos! bday party post soon.. (i hope! =P)

2006-12-31T11:58:00.000+08:00

random post no.3

my youtube is not working again.
i'm lagging big time in watching hanakimi.
haven't even watched epi 5.. and epi 7 is gonna be out soon.
am very upset. rahhhh! >_<

maybe i was careless with my msn nick, and my cousins managed to find my blog.
shites. it feels weird to have family reading my blog.
especially if they are my younger cousins!
don't wanna lead them astray. see, i'm such a responsible cousin. haa.
cindy and joey~ can don't read?
if not i might have to shut my blog down.. T_T

need to build a new pc! (with e help of ah dan..)
my pc is dying soon.
thanks daniel!

it's gonna be 2007 tmr.
all i can say is, time really flies.
omg. i'll be working this time next year!
now that is a really disgusting thought.

some of my frens have been asking me to post my new year resolutions.
wat's e point of having new year resolutions when they NEVER come true?
hmm.. i'll think abt it. see how la.
maybe i'll come up with some when i'm bored this afternoon.

ginny, pr, xtine, hl and lj~
quick come back from TW lehh..
i miss u all!

yan long~
quick come back from yunnan leh..
i miss u too!!
counting down to e 4th of january!

2006-12-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

back from hk..

had a good trip, besides e fact that it was crowded EVERYWHERE.
who says it's a good idea to spend Christmas in HK? rahh.
didnt spend as much as i thought i would have.

hk disneyland was.... disappointing.
i wouldn't say it was a waste of money, cos i feel e $70i paid for e admission was justified by e environment disney tried to create throughout the park.
but it was kinda a waste of time, cos there was really nothing that surprised me.

i missed some pple while i was away..

1) my 9jms

i dunno why i missed them soo much! i never felt like dat before! maybe i was counting down to watching death note 2 with them.. wahaha!

2) my angel

i miss him. :(

p.s: still waiting for more photos for my bday blog post. wahaha!

2006-12-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

in times of darkness...

u'll need someone special to lend u a helping hand.

he appeared!

he may not know it, but he sure made a huge difference in my life.

u're my angel in disguise.

thank u, my angel! :)

2006-12-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

random post no.2

i enjoyed my bday party tremendously.
thanks to everyone who made the party possible!
will blog about e party after i get more photos.
thanks peeps!

you took e place of someone whom i thought could never be replaced.
youuuu.... power la! <33

wat's up with e weather these days?
why doesn't e rain ever stop?
bahhhh.

i am going to sleep now cos i am very very sleepy.
and when i am sleepy, i am grouchy.
GROUCH.
i wanna have a good sleep tonight.
so, this means that nff is not supposed to appear in my dreams and scold me!
haa! XD

2006-12-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

a quick shoutout

my nff is so nice!
*BIG HUG*

less than 24hrs to e big day.
i'm excited. are u?

kays, off to study for my jap test tmr morning.
ganbatte ne! :)

2006-12-13T20:59:00.000+08:00

busy like a bee!

super packed schedule these few weeks.
hardly had time to rest.
my dark eye rings are getting out of hand!
wat a holiday! rahhh!

met up with mr 11th dec aka yan long aka my new found friend (nff) for dinner last night.
i was supposed to give him a birthday treat.
he ended up treating me instead. rahhhh!
thank u nff! i was a happy girl last night!
we better go out soon k! i owe u a birthday present!

counting down to my big day.
can't help feeling that it's like my wedding day.
worried that i'll never get married, so i'm trying to make this as nice as possible.
substitute for a wedding.
WAHAHAHA. thinking too much.

uber excited.
i hope it doesnt rain on that day.
prays.
till e big day, i gotta work work work and work somemore.
bahh!

2006-12-13T18:48:00.000+08:00

just a bit on love.

forbidden love seems sweeter.
something u can't have always seems better than what u have, right?
so i shall keep e bitter sweet feeling of this forbidden love in my heart forever.

LOVE catches u when u least expect it, in e strangest ways, in e strangest moments.
i wanna fall head over heels in love again.
will u be e one?

2006-12-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

birthday notice

1st dec: happy belated birthday janice!
6th dec: happy belated birthday ah dan lao da!
9th dec: happy belated birthday to my sec sch bestie claudia!!
11th dec: happy birthday in advance to my new found friend YAN LONG! whee~
12th dec: happy birthday in advance vonnie roomie!
13th dec: happy birthday in advance to my fellow dec baby 9jm, joey!
15th dec: happy birthday in advance to my uni bestie xinyan!
20th dec: happy birthday in advance to me la.
24th dec: happy birthday in advance LHL!! *shan't talk to pple who are going TW. hrmph.*
25th dec: happy birthday in advance to wilson, e one who has completely walked out of my life.
31st dec: happy birthday in advance LING!

omg. too many birthdays, too little dough.
sorry if i owe u guys pressies. will try to get them asap.
i love december babies!
*muacks*

2006-12-07T23:27:00.000+08:00

our past.

a bit of melacholia here. sigh.

it's been some time since i talked to pple about him.
it's been some time since i told someone i missed him.
it's been some time since i brought him up in my conversations.
so i thought i've forgotten him.

i act nonchalant, as if i had forgotten him and that nothing had happened between us.
but today i realised dat, e truth couldn't have been further from that.
i miss everything abt him, just that i choose not to show it anymore.

loving someone can take many forms.
and one form of love, is letting go.
but i'll never forget him..
it's not easy, but it's e only way out now.
my only regret is not being able to be share his joys and sorrows even as a friend.

after one yr of struggling with pain, regret, love, tears and fears...
it's finally time to go.

goodbye, e love of my life. <3

take care.

2006-11-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

i'm a goner.

i feel it. e idolism fever is raging in me!
arghhhh!
and i thought i'd never be plagued with it anymore!
i almost forgot e feeling since i got rid of it after i got attached to wilson 2 yrs ago!
i'm going nUtS!

buttttt...

wang dong cheng aka da dong aka my dong baby!!
HE HAD TO APPEAR!
oh man! how can anyone be so goodlooking?!
(wah shit i sound like a bimbo but i so do not care now.)
arghhhh. this is so bad.

i foresee a lot of money flying away.
uh oh.

2006-11-29T01:07:00.000+08:00

a story abt e 3 2 tigers

do u guys remember a chinese 'folk' song u sang when u were young?
abt some tigers..

is it:
"liang zhi lao hu, liang zhi lao hu, pao de kuai, pao de kuai"
(2 tigers, 2 tigers, running fast, running fast)
OR
"san zhi lao hu, san zhi lao hu, pao de kuai, pao de kuai"?
(3 tigers, 3 tigers, running fast, running fast)

almost all singaporeans (except 2) i polled randomly on my msn list said it's 3 tigers!
*i also remember singing 3 zhi lao hu when i was young, only changing after i was exposed a lot to taiwanese tv shows.

buttttt... 3 doesnt make sense, cos e song sings...
1 zhi mei you yan jing/er duo, 1 zhi mei you wei ba, zhen qi guai~
so what happened to e other tiger?

e answer is....... IT'S NORMAL!!
*ROTFL* omg this answer is hilarious!!
both HL's sis and my cousin said e same thing.
i am super entertained now. wahaha!

after my long discussion with PR and HL, i have reached a conclusion.
in singapore and brunei, it's 3 tigers - 1 has no EYES, 1 has no tail and e other is normal.
in taiwan, it's 2 tigers - 1 has no EARS, 1 has no tail.

wat a morbid song for kids to sing. eeyer.

p.s: tag leh. tell me what was e number of tigers u learnt!

2006-11-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

acronyms

thought of this when i was doing my birthday invitations.
do u use acronyms dat u don't understand? or am i e only idiot who does?
for example, do u know wat P.S, N.B and RSVP means?

no la.
P.S is not pangsai or pangsei.
N.B is not nabei.

i asked yang abt this, and he wiki-ed for me.
and here are e results.
P.S = Post Script
1. A message appended at the end of a letter after the writer's signature.
2. Additional information appended to the manuscript, as of a book or article.

RSVP
"Repondez s'il vous plait", a French phrase that translates to "Respond please.
(omg! i'd never have guessed..)

N.B = NotaBene (latin)
Used to direct attention to something particularly important.

wahaha so now i know.
i feel a teeny weeny bit smarter now.
thanks yang~ teehee.
i'm in such a good mood today. :)
CHERRIOS!