every visit to sc brings back a wave of memories.
but friday's visit was exceptionally emotional, bcos i went back for a very special reason.
it was to bid farewell to my principal, ms rosalind heng.
ms heng is retiring after 27yrs of serving the school.
although we're sad to see her go, i think she really deserves her break.

i seldom (or should i say never) had e chance to speak one-on-one with her.
it's usually e student leaders, those who did well in exams, or those who did badly in exams who interacted with her.
e only interaction i had with her was e few minutes of assembly time every morning, and e various talks she had with the whole cohort during sec3 & 4.
somehow during these brief interactions, she managed to instill in me, great respect for her and her job.
she was a super figure to me.
knowledgable, inspirational, stern, kind, highly esteemed.
she was THE one who could make everything right again.
when e microphone screwed up during morning assemblies in e courtyard, she would read e day's announcements out to e whole school, loud and clear.
she had e solution to every problem.

i also had a chance to shake her hand on stage twice.
once in primary 1 when i got a book prize for being 1st in class, and once in sec 4 when i graduated from SC.
although i haven't performed extraordinarily well academically, i hope i have done ms heng proud.
i know i must do everything with pride, bcos my work represents me and i represent SC.
scgs rocks.

e old girls gathered around the foyer and gave her a surprise as she came back from lunch.
we sang 3 songs for her, including e school song.
as we stood to attention, we belted out e song that we sang every school day for 10years.
i felt tears threatening to flood out of my eyes.
when i heard our voices filling the foyer building, i knew for sure that the spirit of SCGS still lived in us.
everyone of us.

i'll never forget wat ms heng always said to us..
"u can take a girl out of SC, but u can't take the SC out of her"
i never understood the true meaning of this phrase when i was in SC.
now i do.
bye ms heng, and thank u for grooming us into what we are today.





it's nice to see pple around me get attached.
they are additions to e group of pple who believe in love.
i once belonged to that group.
but not anymore..
and i don't think i'll believe in love anytime soon.

relationships have hit me hard, and right now i just want to be myself.
alone.

i hate to be pressurized into doing things.
so i'm kinda regretting buying my airticket to HK!
cos now i feel pressured to earn more money so i can spend there.
i wish i could use e money for other things like my 21st birthday.
sigh. i might not be able to have a 21st party this year. financing problems.
sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.
i shall have to psycho myself.
HK will be fun. HK will be fun. HK will be fun.
sigh. i'm sure it will be fun.

xy, hwaiting oh!
some chances only present themselves once!





i am happy, i am free.
i haven't been so light-hearted in a long time.

it feels good to have no obligations.
it feels good to have no responsibilities.
it feels good to have no one to report to.
it feels good to not have to justify my actions to anyone.
it feels good that i am not answerable to anyone else but myself.
and most importantly, it feels good that i don't have to feel lousy abt myself.

seeking e original me.
step one to clearing my hurdles.
noelle jiayou~





i'm alone now.
e thought of being alone scares me. very much.
but it shouldnt be e reason why i remain attached.
although i'm apprehensive, i'm kinda looking forward to singlehood.

maybe i'm not matured enough to be in a relationship.
maybe i'm just not good enough.
there are hurdles which i need to cross.
and i need to overcome them myself.
if i don't cross these hurdles, a relationship will become a burden to me and weigh me down.
it wouldn't be fair to e both of us if we carried on.

people around me may not understand.
but i'm glad jvs does.
thank u jvs, for loving and needing me, but yet understanding my need to rediscover myself.
thank u jvs, for wanting to remain as friends.
i know i haven't been e best gf i could be. for this, i offer my apologies.
thank u for e memories.

i am in serious need of strength now.
where are my saviours?





new layout in conjunction with my goong craze.
it'll be temporary though.
blog more later.
time to go pump some gas into e car!





terrible news on a monday morning.
yesterday my class heard from my teacher abt the passing of my classmate's mum.
it was sudden. no prior symptoms of any illness.
something like food poisoning hit her on saturday and she was hospitalised.
and she passed on on sunday morning.

i dont know e exact cause of her death yet, but my guess would be some sort of viral infection.
there seems to be an increasing trend of such sudden deaths.
i read abt a milubing fan who died after she was hospitalised for high fever.
she died of liver failure. it seems some virus attacked her liver and her body wasn't strong enough to fight e infection.

it's scary.
it prompted my negative thoughts and i couldnt sleep well last night..
stuff like "wat would i do if i knew i had one day to live?", "wat would be e last thing i want to see if i knew i was going to go blind?"
haiyoh super depressing.
enough of such morbid thoughts.

i shall think of something happy...
i should decide on my favourite disney character now, since i'll be visiting disneyland dis yr end!
i wanna be enchanted by the magic of disney!

should it be one of e princesses?

or should it be someone from mickey's gang?
after all, they are e original disney gang. and i grew up with them!

orrr should it be someone from the pooh gang?
but according to my fren, everyone from e pooh gang ('cept for tigger) is gay!
wahahaha. let's hear her logic!
"based on e cartoon, all e characters are guys right.. (cos of their voices)
so....
why is pooh wearing a midrift shirt like a girl?
why does eeyore have to wear a ribbon on his tail? and to prove that he's gay, it's PINK!
why does piglet run and hide whenever there's thunder?! why must he make gayish poses? AND WHY MUST HE SNIFF FLOWERS?!"

i hug eeyore to bed everynight.
eeyer eeyore~
i think i prefer my carebear. hahahaha...

the pretty hyo-rin! the mesmerizing YUL! the bubbly chae-gyung! mr nice guy shin-goong!
and my favourite... alfred!

i'll be home by 7pm every night!
quite silly based on e fact i've watched it twice and i have e vcd.
wahaha...

GOONG!! XD

recently i've been so busy with earning money dat i'm becoming a no-lifer!
arghhhh.
e holidays flew by in a flash, but i didn't get a chance to rest at all!
i returned to school very reluctantly and as tired as ever! *faints*

i've so many things to do, and so little time on hand!
i haven't been keeping up with my readings for school!
i miss so many of my friends! i keep telling myself to set aside some time for them, but i never do!
i miss hanging out with pple who make me happy!
p4, taku, nicholas, jing, steph, wilford, von, vince, alex etc etc..
and i'm missing shannon and yang so much dat i dreamt of them!
i want to go hawaii~

despite my busy schedule, i managed to spend some time cheering june up!
to junie: AZA HWAITING! don't be depressed and don't let anyone bring u down, cos u'll always have us!
come to us when u need help! we'll be here no matter wat! i promise...

okie enough blogging for now.
it's time to go back to my service encounters assignment.





goong is coming to channel u in 7days!
singapore, get ready for goong fever!!

i'm not a fan of korean dramas.
but goong is different!!
i havent been this crazy abt a korean show since 'autumn in my heart'.
this is one good show.
everybody watch out!

p.s: has anyone seen me on tv yet? pls let me know if i looked silly. XD