i'm tired.

i've been trying to be...

a good girlfriend
a good student
a good friend
a good worker
a good daughter
a good project mate
a good fan

looks like e juggling of these different roles has taken a toll on me.
i am frustrated at myself, for not being able to remember little things.
i am angry at myself, for not being able to be observant enough.
i am annoyed at myself, for feeling lethargic all e time.

i am just too tired.
why do i have so many things to do, yet so little time?
arghh.

i wanna revert back to my normal student life.
i wanna pamper myself with a whole day's sleep.
i wanna spend a whole day alone with him.
i wanna run around in e sun.
i wanna play beach volleyball.
i wanna be young again. i want my energetic self back again.

but somehow, i just can't.
bahhh.

gotta apologise to my baby, for e lack of attention i've been giving him.
he's been taking it in his stride, though.
thank God i have such an understanding bf.





she's gone.



it came as a shock.
i took it for granted that she'd pull through.
then came e bad news on sunday.
it's such a pity.
she will be greatly missed.

i teared when i saw e footage on enews.
she's too young, too lively, too full of energy to leave this world.

life's just so fragile.
never take anyone for granted.
cherish your loved ones.





my bestest friend.

me: *sighs* meimei...

nic: wat?

me: *makes random whiny, squirmy, gurgling noises dat is basically quite incomprehensible to anyone*

nic: ya okok. i know la..

me: WAT? u understood wat i was saying?

nic: YA. u miss him right?

me: *grins*

there.
told ya.
nic's my bestest friend.
hehehe.





random post no.4

i am finally online again.
i've been feeling so out of touch from EVERYTHING in e world.
just bcos my computer hates me.
it just refuses to cooperate with me. :(

love is such a strange thing!
it makes me kinda silly. :)

i realised i'm worrying a lot these days.
i must say, it's not e best feeling in e world.
i worry abt money - am i going to have enough money for my tokyo trip with him?
i worry abt my studies - am i going to be able to cope with work and school?
i worry abt my future - my honours... sigh. am i going to be able to find an enjoyable job that can support me?
i worry abt my relationship - will this last? or will love fall apart as quickly as it came?
i worry abt my friendships - it seems everyone is too busy to keep in touch. will our friendships last?

FLH is coming!
am i ready? oh yeah, i am.
just that my bank account is not ready at all.
but i wanna have fun again!

my phonebill is coming.
omg. i.so.do.not.want.to.see.it.

i'm in desperate need of money.
i hope some money falls from e sky soon.
meanwhile, anyone with lobangs for weekend jobs, pls contact me.
thanks. love ya guys.

shall go sleep.
blog more soon.

Labels: Random Posts

this post is freaking 2 wks late!

erm.. i just remembered i was supposed to come up with some new year resolutions.
2 wks late, but... better late than never right?
heh.

resolution 1) for obvious reasons, my most impt resolution is to stop procrastinating.
my procrastination nature often creates unnecessary stress for myself.
i would like rid of this source of stress in 2007.
after all, life's stressful enough, isn't it?

e rest of e resolutions are in not particular order of imptance.

resolution 2) shed some kilos.
hmm. i think this was one of my new yr resolutions for last yr.
but i think i didn't exactly achieve this, so here it is, on this yr's list again.

resolution 3) do something useful for once.
for example, get a job. wahaha. and this brings us to...

resolution 4) love my job.
freaking scary. i'm scheduled to join e workforce in aug 2007.
this is baddddd.
i'm gonna be part of e glum faces u see every morning in the MRT and buses.
yikes.

resolution 5) stay true to myself.
i don't know how joining e workforce will change my life and values,
but i hope to stay true to myself, to wat i believe in, and wat i stand for.

resolution 6) keep in contact with pple who matter to me.
very often, as we get busy, we forget e pple around us, focusing only on pressing issues currently on hand.
i don't want to lose someone to time.
i will make an effort to keep my friendships intact.
i love u friends!

resolution 7) learn to love him in e best way possible.

resolution 8) learn to cook!
ehh don't laugh leh.. i'm sure i inherited some "good cook" genes from my mum.
u laugh.
i shan't let u try my food after i become a world class chef.
haa.

resolution 9) achieve my resolutions for 2007.

looking at my list, i feel like bursting out in laughter.
ah wells, maybe this yr my resolutions will come true.
MAYBE.





loves me?
loves me not?
loves me?
loves me not?

hee.
he loves me.
and i'm living a life of bliss.

愛情來得不易。
這次我會小心翼翼的保護我們的愛情。





i hate incompetent pple.

i am freaking upset with my fyp tutor.
she is of completely NO help to us at all!

when we're directionless, and ask for opinions..
we do not need someone to tell us: "oh! A is good bcos..." and "but! B is good bcos.."
ya we can evaluate such things ourselves.
in fact, she seems to be always repeating to us wat we told her!

when we're working based on someone's instructions..
we do not need someone who keeps changing her mind!
she just CANNOT MAKE UP HER MIND! rahh!

she started off agreeing with us that SPSS (some nonsensical statistical program)is not needed for our project..
den she changed her mind, insisting on us using SPSS to analyse our results.
she kept saying that everyone uses SPSS for fyp.
says who?!
after much arguing, she now agrees dat we leave SPSS out.
i wonder how long will it take her to change her mind AGAIN!

and after all e "help" we got from her,
she tells us: "i am very dissatisfied with your performance..."
!)($*(*#&@&@^#$*!%!!!! (i need to scold some vulgarities here.)

i am freaking pissed. and so is janice.
so prof is dissatisfied with us~
can we tell her that we're super dissatisifed with her?!

incompetent person.
talk to my hand please.
bahhhh!





counting down!

by tmr night, ginny would have returned home from TW!
which means, 9jms 全員到齊~ everyone's back in Singapore!
gin back from TW, joey back from US, nic back from Shanghai, ying back from HK.
swee la!
i love 9jm! <33

e xtine, hl, pr and lj gang will also be back tmr!
which means i'll get to hear lots of stories (hopefully abt my dong baby)!
girls, we need to meet up soon!
i got presents for u!

i am super looking forward to thursday!
my angel!
he'll be back on thursday!
yay!

p.s: i got my bday photos! bday party post soon.. (i hope! =P)