MSN relations.

i just looked thru my msn list.
and i realised i don't talk to 75% of the pple on it.
e bulk of it comes clearly from the NTU group.
i have 49 people in that group, and i talk to 5 of them regularly, and 3 more of them occasionally.
i bet most of them don't remember who i am.
we worked briefly together on various projects in a particular sem, and msn happened to be the easiest way of communicating with each other.
but when the project ends, so does the communication.

i am, however, more upset and disappointed at how i handle my relationships with the other people in my other groups.

9jms don't contribute to my disappointment. they clear this easily, cos i do chat with them online regularly.

under the group that i labelled "Energy Fans", i keep constant contact with HL, Christine, Peirong and Loojean.
and i'm thankful to them for making the effort to work at our friendship.

"JC friends". i chat with 5 out of 17 regularly, 3 occasionally, and e rest, NOT AT ALL.
what am i doing?!
why are they even on my list?!

my "SC girls" failed terribly.
out of 9 girls, i chat with 3 of them very very VERY occasionally, and not with e rest of the 6 girls.
once again, why are they even on my list?!
and why am i on their list?!

and the group that upset me the most: "YZULTD"
yzultd gave me beautiful memories.
we forged friendships that managed to extend further than just our liking for yanzi.
or so it seemed.
i guess life is taking a toll on the friendship.
out of 14 people in the group (including wilson who is basically non-existent on my msn cos he probably blocked and deleted me, resulting in me NEVER seeing him online), i talk to a grand total of 1 person occasionally.
SIGH SIGH SIGH.
even as i fight hard to protect my memories of YZULTD, they are slowly but surely, fading away.
and i am feeling a strong need to build up more memories.
as much as i can, i stay away from places that i frequented with them, so as to not "taint" the memory i have of that place.
something must be done soon.
i need money. and den i can organise a chalet or something.

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