and i appreciate.

have been thinking alot these few days.
think my brain is about to reformat soon.
my head is somehow always throbbing away and i feel dizzy quite a bit.

other than the job offers i have been so stressed about, i have been spending quite a fair bit of time at gleneagles.
my good friend's dad is critically ill in ICU and i wish to just spend some time with her.
seeing uncle tubed up in the ICU was painful.
even more so since i saw him 3months ago after his operation to remove the cancerous tumour in his liver, and he was optimistic about how everything would turn out.
an optimistic, semi-healthy person 3months ago, he is now on life support in ICU, fighting for his life.
i feel so.... empathetic, if that is the right word to use here. i feel so much for my friend and her family, but i can't put the feelings into words. i just don't know what to say. i hope she understands my feelings through my actions and hugs.

cancer is really a terrifying disease. it literally eats a person up.
life is really fragile..
just like vincent said, we gotta treat everyone like they'd be gone tomorrow.
so i have been working hard to meet my own expectations of my roles in life.
let everyone around me know how much they mean to me.

i guess after experiencing my grandma's sudden death, seeing jvs's dad's passing, and now my friend's dad situation, i appreciate my family more.

i love my daddy.
i've always been a daddy's girl. when i'm with daddy, i know i will be safe.
i know he will solve all my problems for me. although he pisses me off a lot, i do remember the things he has done for me.
when i was younger, i once developed a high fever in the middle of the night. my daddy carried me in his arms and ran to the 24hr medical centre near my place. i remember feeling terrible, yet once my dad carried me, i knew my illness would go away soon.
all throughout school life and even till now, daddy has been, and still is, my personal chauffeur. i am somehow always faced with situations when i can't get home myself. (last bus left already; no money to take cab; blistered foot/feet so i can't walk home; dizzy spells; caught in the drizzle/shower/thunderstorm; too lazy to go home myself very far from home etcetc). just a call from me, and daddy would nag alot and zoom by to drive me home. better than taxi companies' taxi booking service. personalised service you know? he knows where all my good friends stay, simply bcos he has been to all of their houses to pick me up. in fact, my daddy identifies my friends not by their names but by their address!
to me, my daddy is my hero, my playmate and my entertainer. although he can't help us in our studies cos he's pretty much uneducated, he contributed to me and meimei's lives by playing with us. he always bothered to entertain us by playing games with us, go swimming with us, teaching us how to ride bicycles etc. today, my daddy still entertains us by playing PS2 games with us (although he gets pretty blur about which player he is and keeps "game over-ing")
we get irritated at his attention seeking antics sometimes, but really he is quite funny and adorable.

i love my mummy.
she's my wonderwoman, my know-it-all, my guide book to life.
she always knows what's best for me. she's the one i turn to for advice and support.
and i know, eventually when i choose to walk my own path in life, she'll always be there to support me. mummy brought us up to be decisive, to be strong and to be cautious but bold when making decisions. i'd always thought i veered off these traits, and nic is the independent, strong and decisive one. but as i grow up and see more people around me, i realise i am really much better off than a lot of people in the "decisive, strong and bold" department. i appreciate my mummy's efforts for putting me in a top school and keeping me firmly grounded. i hate the elitist mentality, but being from one of the best schs in singapore create an exposure and experience like no other. and i am proud that i mix well with other people from other schools. although my mummy is a full-time working mother, she never compromises on the time she has for us. she still rushes home to cook a sumptuous dinner for the family, and does all the housework at home. i feel bad that i havent done well in my studies, not as well as she would have liked me to (mummy paid a lot trying to get me educated), but i hope i can make it up to her in other ways.

i could go on and on about my parents. but i'm being summoned for dinner.

being a parent is a tireless job. can't just quit being a parent when you get tired of looking after and being responsible of a child.
but still, i am looking forward to be a mother of the children of the man i love. :)

do you appreciate the people around you?
treasure them before it's too late.

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